I AM AVAILABLE FOR FREE OF CHARGE PEER SUPPORT FOR PEOPLE GOING THROUGH PSYCHO-SPIRITUAL CRISIS. I AM BASED IN WARSAW, I PROVIDE SUPPORT VIA SKYPE.
If you wish to contact me, please leave me a message in the ''contact me'' section.
Here's a bit about my professional journey:
I was determined to become a psychotherapist ever since I started my master's training in clinical psychology. I finished the programme, did the necessary internships as well as tons of charity work and I got into a post graduate training in Integral Psychotherapy school. I was over the moon. In the meantime I published my book which was received very well by both ''the patients'' and the ''mental health professionals''.
I was about to launch my own therapy practice when I started to realize something wasn't right. I wasn't aligned with myself. As much as I was dying to believe in what I was about to do, I couldn't.
Having been a mental health patient myself, feeling labeled, penetrated and analized I knew too well how little traditional psychiatry had to offer. Tons of therapy sessions made me realize there was no such thing as psychology as objective science free from pseudo-scientific dogma and personal values of the therapist. As much as it tought me about the part of my life which could be understood intellectualy it did little for my spiritual and physical wellbeing, while largely draining resources I could do to progress on the later.
I finally faced the truth-
I couldn't start psychotherapy practice because I didn't believe in speech therapy.
I couldn't take money for something that didn't feel worth the money.
It was painful.
My dream melted. My idea of the future got shattered.
And then I found freedom and contentment.
I am now working outside of mental health field and feel very relieved by it. I'm still doing peer support, which feels like a very natural permanent part of my life now, but I am not dependent financialy on it, which allows me to keep an open heart and hold space for others without stressing about meeting my school's approach.
The main 4 reasons why I decided to stop the training:
1. My vocation is helping people with simmilar experiences to mine (diagnoses of bipolar/schizophrenia/depression)- which was in conflict with the goals of the training. My school did not prepare students to work with that group of individuals.
2. I don't believe speech therapy is enough to help people heal from extreme states of consciousness.
3. I believe a huge part of my experience ( as well as of many other people diagnosed with severe mental illness) was largely of a spiritual nature and that aspect of my journey was incompatible with the narrative of modern psychotherapy therefore I have learnt to surpress it.
4. I realized I have more mess to clean in my own life than I realized.
Therefor at the moment I treat helping people as a calling not a profession.